Tonight I’m meeting my husband and son for dinner at a local restaurant to celebrate my daughter’s promotion at work. She’s moving up from hostess to server and tonight is her first night serving alone. I want to be one of the first tables she serves. I’m giddy. She’s nauseous from being so nervous. I know she’ll do great.
In a month she’ll wonder why she was so anxious. That is how she operates though. I remember her first days in college. She’s got a couple semester left and it’s amazing how wise she’s become. In all ways.
I cried when the ultrasound technician told me I was having a little girl. I thought girls hated their moms. But her and I have a very special bond. I can’t imagine my life without her in it. We talk everyday. We go out all the time together, take walks together, and laugh a lot. I know I’m her go-to person and very often she’s mine. She’s definitely my closest and dearest girlfriend. We share make up and clothes and food. And we share excitement and heartache too.
I love her so much.
I spent some time this week reading my old blogs and many were about parenting. I knew that as soon as they graduated high school things would change drastically and they did. I was right. But I wrote about things “ending”. In a way they did…but not how I thought.
My relationship with my kids is now confidant and advisor. My role as parent being my job are over. But being a parent to adult children is sometimes extremely satisfying. While I still feel responsible to them if they were ever in a time of need…I’m no longer responsible for them on a daily basis. They clothe themselves, they feed themselves, and they pay me rent to live in a condo that I purchased to keep a roof over their heads while they became full-fledge adults. And so far it’s working out beautifully.
Tonight is a milestone for this mom. My daughter will open our bottle of wine and take our orders. My son and his girlfriend will share a meal with us. And then we’ll walk home to our loft in the city that we love.
Some days I worry about what will happen tomorrow or next year. But tonight, I’m going to simply enjoy and relish where I am at in life.